What We Don’t Talk About During Our Faith Walk…Real Talk

My faith walk has brought me joy, freedom, despair, and task of healing something that my mind said it wasn’t broken.  Let me tell you, your faith walk is definitely a battle of the mind, in your mind, and about your mind. God’s Word tells us that “Be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind.” God also tells us to walk by faith (2 Corinthian 5:7). God is letting us know to believe in the abundant future that He has for us even when we can’t see it or feel it.

The Word of God holds true and is used for correcting and edifying.  What is also true is that your faith walk is a process to be endured and be victorious. For me, I felt like I got the faith beaten INTO me. Walking out my faith was ugglllyy because my walking shoes were scuffed, broken, and gave my feet blisters. I know this isn’t what you hear in church but let me tell you this,  it’s the truth. And if you are experiencing that as well, there is nothing wrong with your walk with Christ. You are no less than any other Christian. God is taking you through the process of becoming great, being able to bolding walk in abundance, and being prepared to share the Gospel unashamed and boldly. God was trying to get his beautiful flower seed to bloom roses, but I was comfortable thorns and all that I knew was to grow weeds. It was a long road for me because of several factors. One was that I grew up in an abusive environment. Two, I was abandoned at a time when most kids are trying to figure out themselves and this world. Three, I didn’t have a lot of victories to witness or positive remodels growing up. Now you may ask what that has to do with faith. It actually has a lot to do with it.  

How could I trust anyone just because someone told me that I should or that was what I suppose to do? The people around me, in my most vulnerable childhood state, were more interested in taking my childhood from me than helping me experience joy and love. So, I learned to protect myself, trust no one, and be very cautious. So If my instincts are not to trust, how can we expect me or any other person (with these types of experiences) to just believe in this great future and a God that wants to just love me, protect me, guide me, and provide me with abundant life.  Really, in my early Christian life, I had never heard of such a thing. So what did I do for a long time, I mimicked other Christian in order to stay safe and stay in the comfort zone of my mind. Albeit, it was destructive and non-affirming.

It reminds me of this research I read about that used these dogs to try and understand why people respond to different stimuli the way they do.  Well, anyway these animals were placed in a cage, wet with a water hose and then shocked with electricity. The researcher wet and shocked these poor animals every day. Then as part of the next stage of the research, they opened the cage so that the animals could run out if they were being hurt, but surprisingly the animal would not free itself given the opportunity.  On some occasion, the animal would leave out the cage, but would almost immediately run back into the cage in which they know they were going to be afflicted with pain. It was theorized that people would run back to the pain or the abuse because it was their comfort zone. Although I don’t agree with the type of research (it was done in the 1930’s), it did unveil great information.  We don’t just leave our fears just becasue we see a way out, we need to go through a process of gaining trust and a new confort zone. And the road to any new comfort zone is very uncomfortable but necessary.

My feeling about my goals or the abundant life is tied to the faith and my feeling of who I believe I am, in my subconscious mind. You must have a strong desire and a committed spirit to move forward. Your belief/faith is an expectation that something will happen in the future.  You can move toward it not knowing how but believing that it is there. Fear wants us to avoid what we are fearing, but avoidance will take us away from the promises of God. Fear is subconsciously trying to keep us safe, but its faith will conquer the fear tht will lead to true abundance and met goals.  

Your walk of faith is up to you.  But, you must first decide to decide.  You will get hit hard sometimes and even fall but you must get up try again and again. You are promised victory, therefore,  it will come to pass. I am a true living witness. Just because it hurts doesn’t mean you are being punished sometimes it just means you are walking our your faith.

THIS WEEK’S

FAITH TESTIMONIES:

Featuring: Patricia Daniels and Kia Thomas

Who I Put My Faith In

by Patricia Daniels  on January 07, 2019

2018 was a tough year for me to get through. I had to step out on faith and trust that God would help me get through the loss of my husband. I was mentally, financially, emotionally, and physically drained, l was at a loss of what to do next. I had to move out of the house, sell cars, giveaways household items, all within a matter of a couple of months. I told my husband that if something happened to him that Korynn and I would stay in Fresno. Starting out 2019, I’m not sure if that is possible, living off just my income has been tough. I’ve been fighting depression, praying that the Lord would direct me on what church He wants me to attend. I’m stepping out on faith that God will see us through.

I  realized that I was looking at what I thought people want or expected from me and not looking to God for help. I feel churches could have so many expectations that they place on their church member that they either leave or fake it (on Sunday only ). But, I learned that I must trust God for myself and lean on him, not to my own understanding.  It doesn’t look perfect or cute on days but I am walking toward God every day. My faith walk is hard but I do believe “all things work out for the good for those who love the Lord.”

Testing of My Faith When I Lost My Rock

by Kia Thomas  on January 7, 2019

When I was going through the home buying process. Being a single mother, a decent job, student loan debt, and a challenging housing market. Once I started looking deeper into it, my dream of owning a home was becoming unrealistic. But God told me years ago he would set things up for us and we couldn’t move out of our 660 sq ft apartment until I was buying a home. It was hard because I went to one lender and they approved me for the bare minimum. No questions. There were no houses in that range that were livable. But I kept praying. And he led me to the lender that not only gave me a better approval but a loan that would support renovations! Then when it came to looking for a house, I had to keep repeating that he would supply all of our needs according to his riches in glory. I had had other experiences where I knew God was real, but the whole buying and renovating process confirmed it. In a way that’s almost indescribable. People just started coming into my life that I’ve been around for years, but they were able to help me! I had been going to church with my contractor for YEARS, and just found out he was a contractor and he did amazing work on our home! God literally placed the right people in front of me at the right time, even though they were there all along.

To walk out my faith, I had to repeat scripture to myself DAILY! It’s so easy to get caught up in what we see that we lose trust in God and his process just because we can’t see everything. I don’t have the Bible memorized, so I’d go online and search for scriptures about God’s promises. I still can’t tell you where they’re all located, but I’d repeat things like: -He’ll never put more on me than I can bare -Be anxious for nothing – if he cares about the birds in the sky, he cares about me -Cast all of your cares on him because he cares for me -He will supply all of my needs according to his riches in glory.  Repeating these and others helped me to step out of myself and my feelings, and concentrate on what He told me He was going to do for me and my family, even when I was looking at looked like the exact opposit

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